terrified

I'm terrified of the life I'm living
Terrified of the choices I'm making
Terrified I'm no good for you
Even more terrified you're no good for me
Where do we go from here
How do we fix this
How can you continue lying to me
While begging for my honesty
I want to fight
And I want to give up
I want to forgive and forget and smile
But it's hard
Not impossible
 Just hard
You want me to abandon everyone
Every friendship I've fought so hard for
I'm confused
With no one to confide in
I'm hurt
I'm sad
I'm lonely

I feel empty.